changing tomorrow's world, one film at a time?!

so i'm not really reliable at this thing. it's hard to be with so much going on. especially with what i've been putting a lot into lately. try not to cringe.. the future! well, more specifically, my future, what i'm going to do with my life. if i had things completely my way, with no limitations, i would open an independent film company. preferably in chicago. and i would make films the way they were intended to be made, for art not for money. i decided awhile ago that i would rather be poor as dirt making the kind of films that can affect someone's life than a millionare doing anything else.

i don't know when exactly i decided i wanted this so much, but going to the new york film acadamy's workshop in florida two summers ago definitley made up my mind. completely. i had one week to learn about, write, storyboard, cast, shoot, and edit a film. it was the most intense week of my life, but the most satisfying. i love every single part of filmmaking. :) my film is NOT the greatest, but i was proud of the outcome. it was my first one, ever. and it made me fall in love.


UGH. WARNING! YOUTUBE RUINED MY MOVIE. THEY SHRUNK IT, ITS SUPPOSED TO BE WIDE SCREEN, AND THEY DELETED MY TWO SONGS BECAUSE THEY WERE COPYWRITED. SO I ADDED A NEW ONE. EXCEPT ON THIS VERSION ITS MY ORIGINAL SONG? ... ha idk enjoy..




almost everyone i talk to asks me why i'm here, at u of i, instead of some film school in california or newyork, or even columbia downtown. i don't really have an answer. as of last week my major here was media studies. i thought it would at least get me on some sort of path, but i hate it. (which is funny because this blog is for a media studies class!). So this week and next week i'm meeting with advisors to switch to New Media, a major i didn't even know exsisted until i got so fed up with mine that i had to do some research. it sounds perfect and i hope everything works out. seriouslyy.

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One World.

i've been looking for this video forever. it inspires me every time i watch it. my tv production teacher showed it to our class last year, and it's stuck with me ever since. it is just another thing that drives me to filmmaking. i want to affect people like this. i hope you enjoy it as much as i do.

The Message

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Oh, deer.

i'm exhausted. i just got back. there aren't any deep thoughts about life in my mind, all i can think is sleeeep.
but i was looking through some of the pictures i've taken from the internet and i wiill say that i love deer. if you know me, you already know this. i want one. haha but enough rambling from my overtired brain. see for yourselffff;





lovethem!

oh god. i need sleep :)
goodnight
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So i'm at the train station..

two hours early. because that's the only way i could get here. I don't mind it so much. I've been here so much, it almost feels like home. I've taken this three hour, well six really, trip so many times i can't even count. but what's on the other side is worth it;

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Speaking of trains, i really like them. I love traveling, moving, going somewhere. Trains, planes, cars, i love it all. There's something liberating about it. I guess it's how i get adventure out of life. for now anyway.

you see, the thing about trains is, it doesn't matter where it's going. what matters is deciding to get on.

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